As part of the Change Your Stars Challenge that we've embarked on over at my other blog, the Moody Muses, I have not only wanted to make new progress on my writing goals but also on my health and wellness goals, too. The hard thing though, is that sometimes life gets in the way of any plans we might try and make. This summer was supposed to be a big one for me in terms of productivity and weight loss and general feeling better about where I'm at in this stage of life and none of that ever happened because life happened instead.
Instead of digging in and finishing that book like I'd told many friends that I would, I was sometimes too emotionally overwhelmed to do anything. Just completely paralyzed to concentrate on a little thing like progress.
And when the going gets tough, the tough get . . . to doing a whole variety of things. They may get going. They may get tougher. They may hit the gym. They may go shopping. They may eat. And eat I did. I am pretty much farther away from those health and wellness goals than I had ever anticipated, but I think in times of crisis we just have to trust that we are getting through things the best way we can. We are not slacking off on important deadlines or the hard core responsibilities, but we are taking the time and care that we need to be whole. And quite frankly, for me and in this emotional state, it did not result in my opting for the gym membership. At least not at this time. I've just been too damn fragile.
The behavior is cyclical I think. I am so tired. And the more tired I am the less I want to move about. And the less I want to move about the more bad food I eat. And the more bad food I eat makes me that much more tired . . . You see the vicious circle taking shape.
At some point I will break the cycle. But for now I can only manage the many things I already have on my plate and I swear that I'm just getting by in the best way I can. Losing myself in the book in the few instances I can, trying to push forward and get this work done despite the stress and chaos around me.
How do you guys cope when the two words to describe what's going on in your lives are: TOO MUCH? Is it more than just peanut M&Ms? Inquiring minds want to know!
xoxo
bex
